Every new beginning comes some other beginning's end

That song is very relevant to me right now. For those of you who know me or read this blog you know that I was going through the journey of TTC for 14 months. This past cycle I had an U/S on CD11 and there were a TON of follicles (too many in fact) so my doctor diagnosed me with PCOS and had me come back on CD14 to check for progression. If they didn't grow they wanted to start me on provera to get my next cycle and then up the clomid to 150. Well when the U/S had showed my follicles had shrunk again, I made a decision. I was originally going to do one more cycle and then break for the holidays. I did some serious soul searching and decided that I would skip the 15th month and get the Realize band. It wasn't an easy decision for me, it really is a last resort. As many people who know me know I've been battling this with everything I have and it hasn't made a difference. And my weight is probably the main reason why I was unable to conceive this time. So I'm going to take a break and get back down to a more healthy weight (aiming for 150 again, only this time I'll make it) and then talk about getting back into TTC. I will be scheduling the surgery for sometime in February or March because I have to do 6 months of a medically supervised diet as part of the conditions of my insurance. I appreciate all of my friends and family for being so supportive even though I was a Debbie Downer and probably a bit bitchier than normal too. I know that you'll be there to support me through this too, a much easier task I'm sure! So now I will be blogging about my experiences with the surgery before and after and many other things involved with getting back to a healthy me! I will be posting pictures because even though I am having surgery I still have to watch what I eat and exercise or it will all be a waste!