Another month, another heartbreak

I've tried to stay positive in all this but after a full year and blood tests showing I didn't ovulate I'm tapped out. I don't know where to go from here or if this is just a sign that Ethan will be an only child. I never wanted that for him, but I can't make my body work if it's not meant to. If this is a joke, it's not funny!! I just want to wake up from this year-long nightmare. I never could have fathomed that after two pregnancies in a year I would be struggling with infertility. I guess there isn't much else I can say at this point. I feel like I'm failing at the one thing women were meant to do.

Screw you AF, no really I mean it GTFO

Who knew after 11 months I would still be here? I thought I'd be ok because of the due date, but surprise I'm not! Just so lost, hurt, confused and so much more right now! Not much to say that hasn't been said. Guess I will use this next cycle to do my best to take off some damn weight. And now I am getting wasted as hell at my 10 year reunion this weekend!!!!!!!!!