Another month, another heartbreak

I've tried to stay positive in all this but after a full year and blood tests showing I didn't ovulate I'm tapped out. I don't know where to go from here or if this is just a sign that Ethan will be an only child. I never wanted that for him, but I can't make my body work if it's not meant to. If this is a joke, it's not funny!! I just want to wake up from this year-long nightmare. I never could have fathomed that after two pregnancies in a year I would be struggling with infertility. I guess there isn't much else I can say at this point. I feel like I'm failing at the one thing women were meant to do.